This is, as i said, the last entry before I give up my name as Double-or-Nothing. I have been hearing things. It seems my step-mom, who I absolutly was mad at till now. It seems that she wants to help me make it. Even through all the things I have said. I love her for that. She is as strong as I thought. My dad on the other hand. i dont know what he wants anymore. All i see is pain and anguish in his eyes. Hate and suffering. Never have I ever seen him filled with joy or happy. Ya i have seen him smile once and a while, but never actually happy. i didnt like that. i still dont like it. He hasnt been in a happy mood around me ever since that d