This is, as i said, the last entry before I give up my name as Double-or-Nothing. I have been hearing things. It seems my step-mom, who I absolutly was mad at till now. It seems that she wants to help me make it. Even through all the things I have said. I love her for that. She is as strong as I thought. My dad on the other hand. i dont know what he wants anymore. All i see is pain and anguish in his eyes. Hate and suffering. Never have I ever seen him filled with joy or happy. Ya i have seen him smile once and a while, but never actually happy. i didnt like that. i still dont like it. He hasnt been in a happy mood around me ever since that day he forced me to come out to all my family in the house that one night. That was the biggest mistake he made. I wanted to tell the rest on my own. Not like that. But Michelle, I thank you for all you are doing and all you have done. And my final words ever on this name. Thank you all for your support, and I hope new memories will be made with my new account LexiconEC! Good-bye everyone, and shall I happily greet you now as Lexi!